StarGarden MoonWatch for the Full Moon, May 12th, 2006
I’m Maria Theresa Maggi, intuitive astrologer on KRFP in Moscow, Idaho, and you’re listening to the StarGarden MoonWatch for the full moon of May 12, 2006.
The full moon this month falls in the water sign of Scorpio, which brings us the essence of transformation. At the new Taurus moon we sought the balance between doing the earthy work of digging the trenches and finding the simple pleasure of scratching the itch. At the full moon, Scorpio, the polarity of Taurus, brings us the potential to experience a shift in the work of slow change we began to implement in the last two weeks. To work with the deep death and rebirth processes of Scorpio requires a willingness to penetrate surface power struggles and get to the essential power of the circle of life and death. A willing sense of fate or surrender is often associated with Scorpio experiences. And Scorpio does bring us experience as the medium in which we learn. As the bumper sticker used to say, that four-letter word you can’t say on the radio happens. When the moon is in Scorpio, we don’t intellectualize our feelings, we experience them, and often with an all or nothing intensity. Scorpio is also the sign of our partner’s resources and it brings us all experience in which we seek to merge with such powerful forces as money, sex, or life and death risks, in order to take those things into ourselves in the hope of becoming more powerful, or surrender to letting them go.
The moon’s square to Neptune might create tension between the will of our own feelings and the dreams, needs or obsessions of a group or a friend. Scorpio, as the arbiter of the forces of life and death, does not shy away from endings. And Neptune dissolves the parameters that make experience finite. So while we may be reluctant to let one form of alliance go, we may also trust the possibility of a more ideal future for that alliance emerging as well, although the structure of that may remain in the mists for the time being. The moon also has an automatic and easy connection to Mars in Cancer, so our families or the women in our families may need us, or we may feel it is important to be there for them. This aspect also may promote an intense emotionalism that surrenders up past hurts or insecurities to be aired, so we can look truthfully at how powerful absolutes may be limiting who we can be. One path of possible Scorpio intensity is dramatized in the famous Raymond Carver story “What We Talk About When We Talk About Love.” Two couples, Nick and Laura, and Mel, a cardiologist and his wife Terry while away an afternoon at the kitchen table with gin and limes, getting increasingly drunk as Mel tries to make an absolute point about the nature of love, while simultaneously betraying his own inability to experience and embody that which he seeks. As the following excerpt from the beginning of the story shows, the conversation often revolves around people who have wanted to kill someone else or to die themselves by design or dissipation because of their passions. A Scorpio moon can prompt sharp experiential lessons in such strong feelings and obsessions, since these very obsessions bring us the experience of who we do or do not want to be. With this full moon’s relationship to Mars in Cancer, we may find ourselves having emotional experiences in the next two weeks concerning past relationships with lovers, friends or family that could even reveal such extreme experiential discrepancies as the characters talk about at the beginning of the story:
My friend Mel McGinnis was talking. Mel McGinnis is a cardiologist, and sometimes that gives him the right. . .There was an ice bucket on the table. The gin and the tonic water kept going around, and we somehow got on the subject of love. Mel thought real love was nothing less than spiritual love. He said he’d spent five years in a seminary before quitting to go to medical school. He said he still looked back on those years in the seminary as the most important years in his life. . .
Terry said the man she lived with before she lived with mel loved her so much he tried to kill her. Then Terri said, “He beat me up one night. He dragged me around the living room by my ankles. He kept saying, ‘I love you, I love you, you bitch.’ He went on dragging me around the living room. My head kept knocking on things.” Terry looked around the table. “What do you do with love like that?”
. . .”My god, don’t’ be silly, that’s not love and you know it, Mel said. . .”The man threatened to kill me.”. . .He finished his drink and reached for the gin bottle.
Here are some suggestions for each of the sun signs for how to heal our obsession through the surrender and release of forgiveness under duress, both for ourselves and those who have tried to overpower us:
Aries: You may be experience some things holding you back while others free you, as plans for the future remain unclear or up in the air. Yet friends or allies can help give compassionate structure to these transitions.
Taurus: You may have to consider doing more adjusting as big changes in partnerships or spiritual groups continue to play out. Or your own wish to transform feelings in a partnership can change the shape of interactions.
Gemini: You might feel like changing your routine so you can be home more, or have more privacy. Yet there are still some public projects or obligations left to meet. Soon you can go your own way.
Cancer: Educational plans for children or women loom large in your creative life or what you want. What you must consider for others affects you as well. It’s important the foundation for the future be secure yet fluid.
Leo: There’s a changing of the guard afoot at home that you may feel ambivalent about. Partners, groups or friends may be taken up with an ideal cause or the work of change. Support them, and you will gain as well.
Virgo: A friend or sibling could change your feeling about the future, or you could help each other with family issues. Or you feel more deeply a conscious awareness that you can initiate changing what is passed down to you.
Libra: It may be a time when you have to take responsibility for living according to your ideals. This could involve being more careful with other people’s money, or letting a partner hold on to what he or she has earned.
Scorpio: You’re expecting a partner to come through for you, but you may also have to come through as well. A family member at a distance could initiate your understanding that it isn’t either/or, but both, that make the difference.
Sagittarius:. Someone who is ill or has strong belief could give you emotional courage to you manifest a new purpose in your everyday life. Your surroundings may be permeated with kindness or fanaticism of friends or siblings.
Capricorn: The connection between family and friends, or the experience of friends as family may take center stage. These bonds can help you stay strong in the face of life transitions, added responsibility, or grief.
Aquarius: Practical spiritual wisdom may seem to come out of nowhere, and may change your public and private view of both past relationships and present ones. Trust your willingness to be strong for someone else.
Pisces: A female teacher or relative, perhaps from a distance, could help you ground the spiritual understanding you strive to embody. A new approach to a public or private project with children could come from this.
Terry also tells about how some time after she left the man who dragged her around, he bungled a suicide, and, against Mel’s objections, she sat with him while he was unconscious in the hospital until he died. Perhaps we can look for a possible answer to Terri’s question “what do you do with love like that?” in the highest potential of Scorpio, which is represented by the paradox of the phoenix. Astrologer Carolyn Casey says in Making The Gods Work for You, that, according to legend, as the phoenix is about to die, it sings a hauntingly beautiful song, and all of creation stops to listen, and is reminded of what is truly important. Then the bird bursts into flames and from its ashes the new phoenix arises. This legend is symbolic of the redemptive potential available to us through Scorpio lunar energy when we are willing to face the limits of who we are, and who are not, and be tempered through the flames of our passion or obsession in the hope they’ll bring us closer to a more complete embodiment of love, courage, and forgiveness. Even in the shadowy waters of Scorpio, we spark those potential flames of transformation every time we shine our lights, shed some light, and keep it light!